As I'm sure you've figured out by now, I did indeed take the job. MM and I talked it over and decided that I would take it on a temporary basis. So I started a week ago last Friday. It's been hard getting back into a working routine. For almost seven months I had a totally different schedule. Having to rush to pick up the kids and get to baseball has been..interesting. It feels so strange now to think I did this for years - and without help.
MM has been on vacation this week so he's been taking care of dinner each night and picking up the slack with the kids. It's going to be even harder this week since he's going back to work tomorrow. I think once we get back into a routine we'll be ok, but in the meantime things are pretty hectic.
I also still have team mom and PTA duties, so juggling those is pretty hard, too. So far I haven't had to do anything with the PTA, but we have big events coming up that I'm supposed to take part in. I think for now I'm going to pull back from that. I feel bad for committing myself and then backing out, but it makes sense since I can't attend any of the meetings or events. I may still take on some of the online work, but it will depend on how things go at home. I don't want to stretch myself too thin.
As for the actual job, well..it's a job. I really didn't want to go back into this field. The mortgage industry is very volatile right now. Although I'm knowledgeable and feel like I can contribute something to this company, my heart really isn't in it. Because it's only supposed to last a few months I feel fine where I'm at. If it turns into a permanent position I don't know that I'll accept. In the meantime I'm just plugging away.
The first few days I did nothing but busy work since my computer hadn't arrived yet. Since last week Tuesday I've been kept really busy. I spent a couple days in training to brush up on some programs and now I'm getting down to the actual work. It feels good to be using my brain again, I'll admit. Not enough to make me want to do this permanently, though.
My online access is limited at work. Although I have free reign I've been encouraged to not spend a lot of personal time on the computer there. That means I'm really behind in my blog-hopping and email-returning. I miss all of you!
Anyway, that's all I've got for now. Hopefully as I get settled in I'll be around more. Or so I hope.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Posted by Holly at 9:40 PM
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Life is strange sometimes. Take, for example, the fact that I haven't had a job for 7 months and yet I can never find time to write blog posts. Funny things happen all the time (mostly because MM is..special /snicker) and I think, "I so need to blog that!" and then life happens and I don't get around to it.
Also funny? Just a couple weeks ago MM and I had a discussion about my lack of prospects in the job market and decided I should probably just resign myself to becoming a permanent stay at home mom. To be honest, I've become quite comfortable at home. I love that I'm able to keep better track of The Girl's progress at school and attend all of Little Man's baseball games/practices. I love that MM and I get one day alone a week together because he's off on Mondays and the kids are at school. I love that I have free time during the day to read, play with the dogs or watch t.v.
Of course there are drawbacks, too. The kids think I'm their personal slave (ehem, and so does MM) and live only to do their bidding. Not to mention..well, it's kind of boring - and lonely - being home all by myself all day. I can only spend so much time talking to the dogs before I'm considered "crazy" rather than "cute" or "eccentric". Ya know?
So why is all that funny? Because we'd decided that I should probably just give up the ghost and make this a permanent gig, so I signed up to be LM's team mom for baseball and volunteered myself to be a fully active member of the PTA (OMG, I'm so one of THOSE moms now, yikes!) and signed TG up for another session of cheerleading.
Then, totally out of the blue, I got a call asking if I'd be interested in a job in my old field. A former co-worker heard about a job opening and mentioned my name. I've been sending out 50 resumes a week for 6 straight months and haven't gotten one.single.call, but a week after I decide to make my stay at home permanent, a job all but falls in my lap. Nice.
MM and I decided I'd check out the job prospect and see what it was about, then we'd make a decision. So on Monday I went in for a job interview that wasn't really a job interview. Turns out the job is sourced through a temp agency. I went to their office expecting to do a formal interview and come away needing to make a decision about whether or not I wanted to take the job (depending on how the interview went, of course).
The problem? They thought I wanted the job and was only going into the office to fill out paperwork and begin the background investigation so I could begin employment. Basically we were coming at the same issue from two different places and..long story short, I have job. Starting tomorrow! Yes, tomorrow! On Friday!! OMGWTF?!?!?!
As I'm sure you can imagine, I'm completely unprepared for this. I wasn't interested in this job, didn't even know what it was, in fact, until this morning when I was officially offered the position. Basically I am now employed through the temp agency and my first job through them is as a loan processor. The position should last between 2 and 4 months and the pay is pretty good.
But..yikes. It all happened so fast!
On the one hand I'm glad it's a temp position, because that means if it's awful I only have to stick it out for a short time. On the other, I'll find myself back in this same position a few months from now. Unemployed and unsure of what to do with my future. Of course this could give us the boost we need to make my staying home permanent. Not only that, but I'll be giving up a lot in regards to the kids. I love that I'm able to take them to practices and visit with TG's teacher whenever I need to, plus we have more quality time together. I'm going to lose all that by going back to work.
Obviously I'm torn. MM would prefer that I stay home, but he'll be supportive if I decide to take the job (er..didn't I already kind of agree to take it?). So that's good. But..I just don't know what to do. My Catholic guilt (never mind that I haven't been Catholic for more than a decade) has already kicked in and I feel like I have to take the job now. Especially because it pays well.
Plus, taking the job also means giving up my online play time during the day. No more spending my days Twittering or taking random quizzes on Facebook. Now I'll have to be a productive member of society again. Sad, right?
I know, I know. Everyone should have such problems, right? Still, I have to consider these things.
So, now that you know what's currently up with me, tell me, what's currently up with you?
Google Reader recently decided I was showing suspicious, spam like activity and locked me out of my account, so I haven't read many of your more recent blog posts (sorry!), so even if you blogged about it I probably didn't see.
Tell me what's new with you....
Posted by Holly at 1:45 PM
Thursday, April 02, 2009
This is something that's super quick and easy to make. For me, it falls into the "comfort food" category. It's also something my children love, so it's really a family favorite.
Quick funny story: When I got married the first time (to the Rat Bastard) we eloped. We were planning a big wedding, but decided at the last minute to just go to our Pastor's office and get it done. We told his mom we were going to a pre-marriage counseling session and instead got married. When we got back to her house to pick up the kids we announced we were married. The RB said, "Have you met my wife, Holly?" and his mom said, "Well. If I'd known you were going to get married I would have made something fancier than Tater Tot Casserole!"
So yes, this is the meal I had on my wedding night (the first time I got married). The meal I had on my wedding night the second time I got married wasn't much better (MM talked me into going to In-N-Out), so I guess I just have a bad track record when it comes to that.
Tater Tot Casserole
My recipe is for a family of four. I make it in a glass 13x9 baking dish.
1 bag frozen tater tots
2 cans condensed cream of mushroom soup
2lbs ground beef
1 bag frozen green beans
1 small onion, chopped
1 tsp Italian seasoning
1 tsp Montreal steak seasoning
2 tsp Worcestershire sauce
Pre-heat oven to 450 degrees (f).
Brown ground beef with onion, steak seasoning, Worcestershire sauce and Italian seasoning in a large skillet. Drain. Stir in two cans condensed soup (DO NOT ADD WATER) until thoroughly mixed. Add green beans to mixture and poor into glass baking dish. Spread with spatula until even.
Cover mixture with a full layer of tater tots. Bake at 450 degrees for 18-20 minutes or until tater tots are golden brown and cooked all the way through. Serve immediately.
See, super easy. It only takes about 30 minutes from start to finish and like I said, the whole family loves it. Sometimes I sprinkle the tots with seasoned salt before I put it in the oven, but not always. That's totally up to you.
Posted by Holly at 9:00 AM